Neutrality
There has to be a way to have more positive days in my life. A person can’t always live the weekdays wishing it was the weekend; and then spend the weekend recuperating and then dreading the weekdays. I am convinced the environment I am in is the main problem, but I’ve been in so many bad environments. I wonder how a person finds a good one. It must be purely by luck. Other times I wonder if I have chosen the wrong field. I am very good at what I do and I can do a lot of it in my sleep; but does that mean it’s the right thing for me.
To some extent I think the work climate is changing. I haven’t seen a place in ten years that focused on getting the job done. It seems it is more about childish infighting, vengeance and hateful behaviors than the job people are hired to do. Maybe its time to find something where I go behind the scenes and study vials, blips on a screen, or mathematical analysis. I love the idea of being a professional write and staying holed up alone all the time writing. I know I would need some interaction but at least it wouldn’t be forced. I don’t know the answers yet, but I sure have a lot of questions.
So in perspective I hesitate to rate the past few days as good or bad. They were neither. Some aspects were troublesome and not very pleasant. Other aspects were alright although not particularly exciting. I guess it would be neutral. I guess most days really are neutral. Perhaps the expectations are what is skewed.
To some extent I think the work climate is changing. I haven’t seen a place in ten years that focused on getting the job done. It seems it is more about childish infighting, vengeance and hateful behaviors than the job people are hired to do. Maybe its time to find something where I go behind the scenes and study vials, blips on a screen, or mathematical analysis. I love the idea of being a professional write and staying holed up alone all the time writing. I know I would need some interaction but at least it wouldn’t be forced. I don’t know the answers yet, but I sure have a lot of questions.
So in perspective I hesitate to rate the past few days as good or bad. They were neither. Some aspects were troublesome and not very pleasant. Other aspects were alright although not particularly exciting. I guess it would be neutral. I guess most days really are neutral. Perhaps the expectations are what is skewed.
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