The Struggle Never Ends
Life is a constant struggle it seems. We keep fighting for that state of smooth sailing but it doesn't exist. There is alway another hurdle. It can be very disheartening. But we must persist. We must keep fighting and struggling past each hurdle. We must tackle each thing that gets in our way.
What keeps us going? The hope that there is a better state of smooth sailing ahead of us. That some day it won't be so difficult for us. Perhaps there is. I don't think everyone struggles as hard as I do. I still hope some day my struggle won't be as hard as it has been. I'm worn out. I'm so very tired. I don't know how I can keep fighting so hard so constantly.
However, I'm not sure what the option is. How do you stop fighting? How do you give up? If a hurdle is thrown at you what choice to you have but to react? It's like blinking. It's about impossible to resist the urge. So you find yourself in the fight no matter how tired or worn out you are. You look back and find you are on the other side of the hurdle. You aren't sure how you got there.
Of course you turn around and there is another one ahead of you. They are always there. But sometimes there is a little break in between. I just wish the breaks would be a bit bigger than they have been. But I keep the faith that someday they will.
I was just talking about this the other day. It is SO important to have breaks in the struggling. Just a small, 2 hour break even, if it is a true break and you feel 'normal' then it can keep you going for weeks. Just to remember what normal feels like is so joyous, it is a definite revitalizer, a reminder that life was different once upon a time and that little break of normalcy is PROOF that we can have it again. If for a moment, than why not forever??
Lots to think about with this post
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